I need a hobby and some exercise

My legs ache for no real reason. I can't figure it out. I am constantly aching at my hip as well. I think I need some exercise. My problem is that my anxiety gets in the way of that and what time I do spend walking I am aching. Does it ever get easier? My biggest problem is I feel like I am in a transition point. I know I am, which it should be wonderful because I know what the next stage is. The next stage of life is the most beautiful part of all. At least that is what I feel like right now. Motherhood is next...

I know it is.

No, I am not pregnant. Yes, I have been trying to be a mother for a year now. I still do know it will be coming soon. I try every day to add something more to make life better and to get myself ready for that stage. It started with simple things like perfecting my hygiene. Then it went to trying to make sure that I do things like take vitamins and try to cut out the extra caffeine during the day. I hope for everything else will fall into place.

Though there is one little thing that is probably why am not pregnant. Actually, not a little thing, I am overweight. I've been overweight since I stopped drinking, smoking and other such unhealthy habits I stopped before I married Adam. Now it is actually quite normal for even one of those things to push you from being a petite little cute girl into an overweight woman. Now I had all of those with an under active thyroid and some anxiety issues that made it hard for me to leave the house.

I can not use those excuses anymore. I've been able to get everything else under control. I tried going to a therapist to get my anxiety under control, but unfortunately that did not work. I found myself after more than one session to anxious to leave the car. I had to have Adam come pick me up from about thirty minutes away from the office. I have generalized anxiety. I have figured out I just have to work around the bad times. Now I just need to get over it enough to loose weight.

You notice that is not the only thing in the title. The other part also has to do with the transitions in my life. I am trying to keep down my anxiety, work a normal job, prepare to have a baby and let Adam do his job. His takes a few more hours than mine. That means I need to occupy myself when he works. I thought of classes, but that is too stressful. Before that I thought I would help him, that was not much better. So I have to have something to occupy me that won't stress me.

Maybe just writing. I think that sounds good.